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Stressed - 2004-06-27 Nick at Nite - 2004-06-25 Think Good Thoughts! - 2004-06-22 Turning Weakness Into Strength - 2004-06-20 Appearance - 2004-06-20 2003-06-19 - 2:30 a.m. - Existencial Thoughts On Simplicity You know what? It's been a very long time since I've had a day like today. It wasn't super great or anything like that, but it's just been such a long time (or at least, that's what it feels...) since I've truly enjoyed anything. But it was different today. I think I was different today. First off: I didn't work today...and that was friggin' great. I really seriously wish I could have more time for myself and my friends and not lose a great deal of income. Unfortunatly, it also makes me not want to go back very much tomorrow either, considering that yes, friends, it's another one of those lovely 10 hour shifts. Not that I don't like having a job that earns me money now, mind you...it just sucks when you're 20 and that's your life right there. Also, I'd just like to say that having certain people (say oh, I don't know...TANYA!!) around makes me very happy. I find that we get really loud together, and probably even annoy each other on occasion (or, at the very least, everyone within 50 feet of us...yikes!), but it is fun. Tanya, you are seriously a great friend. I love ya, darlin', and even when we're in that nursing home together, I think we'll be okay. We went over to Erin's today and hung out for a little bit, and the girls (Kendra's here with us too!) got to see the new little tyke. He is such a good baby! Not so much with the crying and stuff...but it was a good time. It's kind of weird to think about how much things really have changed in the last few years. Erin's a mother, we've all grown past high school, I've admitted to many friends now that I'm gay, and there's more...there's so much more, it's just mind-boggling. But oh well...it's healthy growth, for the most part, and I think we'll take it. Well, I guess we don't have much choice now, huh? I've also been thinking of places I wouldn't mind moving to in the not too distant future. I know I've mentioned this before, but Erin's getting out to Washington pretty soon, and I've thought about a couple of places around there. I'm also thinking someone around the cities. Maple Grove stuck out as a place of particular interest, but apartments there are just so damn expensive. I don't even know if I could swing living on my own in Fargo right now, much less someplace with much higher rent rates. And I'm not so sure I could do it completely on my own. To a point, I'm retracted from people, but in an overall sense, I don't like to be on my own. I don't know...the answers will come in time, I suppose. But anyway, I should probably get on to bed now. I have to work in the morning, and have a couple of bills to sort through before I leave, so yeah...sleepy sound lovely. Anyway, peace, and a big shout out to those in my life who make me feel truly good to be alive! Thanx...you're the greatest.
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